Saturday, June 16, 2018

Until I find the words

Sometimes I can feel
the loneliness people talk about
The kind of comfort you find
on a radio station
or on TV. 

Loneliness comes with great anguish.
But within yourself you find space
to spread your wings
when you are alone
outside
and it's late
and it's cold
and you don't know
where
to go
or how
and you can't seem to be able
to find your person
you take a deep breath
close your eyes
and you see
your person is you

and at that moment you realise
you are immense
everlasting
cosmic

Monday, April 23, 2018

Pedal


Today I rode a bicycle

I have never really ridden a bicycle before

It felt natural

Like anything you really want to do

Like anything your fire burns for

You realize how much your freedom is worth,
when you are finally ready to claim it

There are no full-stops in my thoughts 

no commas, no alignment no sense

I don't think in lines and paragraphs

Today I rode a bicycle


Wednesday, April 11, 2018

Quantize

Everything around me defines me
be it the air in my hair
or the sun on my skin

we react to everything around us
voluntarily or not

we are everchanging

and when you see
that you share such connection
with the world
you should choose what surrounds you
every little detail of it
because you are it

or you become it eventually

Monday, October 16, 2017

Peninsula

But I feel I grow old
not older

and I get tougher
Instead of stronger

and uninterested
instead of patient

I demean
instead of rationalize 

and every step of the way
I am no longer amazed
only rarely surprised

I am no longer a child
but this cannot be what "adult" means either

And I do not remember
when I began
fitting in
so well

I believed I was round 
infinite
but I have edges
and this time they don't hurt 
me
but maybe others 

and I feel fine

and that is the worst part

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Spectator

Nowadays we share nothing
but space 
I remember how easily we exhanged
empty promises
that now float around us
I do not feel
anger
or 
sadness
but I feel like
I had to become shallow
in order to fit
in this reality 
and 
an abudance of people
sharing your love
playing their roles
smiling
you never made me smile
except for
the days when I dreamt
how it would be to be with you
but I didn't know 
it would hurt 
that 
much
and I never knew
that you would want to 
kill me
and I never imagined that I would want to
survive


Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Bedtime stories

You hurt
like a broken bone
or an open wound
I chase after
what I think you are offering me
and then you take it back
or at least I think you do
Sometimes I see a silver lining,
but it's not enough
I'd like a silver sky
and right now I wish it would stop raining
but after all
it's autumn here 


Tuesday, September 19, 2017

AmitiƩ Extraordinaire

I had a little friend
we used to dance all night
to pop melodies
try to sing like the tall pretty girls

our nights were filled
with chocolate and pineapples
we used to cut the world
and glue it back together
hang it on walls
look at it and laugh
we used to write stories
lock ourselves in bathrooms

my little friend grew bigger
and all of that slowly faded away
but we would still share
...
 15 dreams
15 secrets
15 years that created
distance
but inside these 15 years

I found more than a million reasons
to love you
and want you to stay
but wherever you go
if you are closer to reaching for the stars
that is enough for me

we will always find someplace to dance