Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Life and other misfortunes


It feels like there is no future. And no past.

All is now. All is present.

I am so consumed by my microcosm that I think it's absurd, how the world keeps going on, when I can barely coordinate my feet to walk a straight line and not fall over. 

Or fall apart.
 
I know there are worse things that can happen. I just can't think of any of them right now. I know eventually it will end. I don't know what will, but I know it's not gonna be like this.


The past 5 years have been fundamental. Fast paced, and I can only grasp some of the things I learned during days like this one.

Life keeps winning me over and I can't help but laugh because, in the end, I remain the same helpless little deer, regardless of the improvements I make and the determination I begin with.

Today, this makes sense.
Tomorrow it might not. It probably won't, let's face it.
 
So I will just have to remember that today was a good day.

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

No more

Knowing the end
is a heavy weight to carry
I see you walking
unaware
I cannot get to you

I stand here
I tear apart the pieces
that stand in your way
I am being
ridiculed

I think
most of the times
I am left hollow
by the edge of the cliff
but I think
down below
is a halcyon sea
the arrogance of my youth
your promising lands

Knowing the end
is a heavy weight to carry
and I will sleep on it
yet another night 




Friday, September 16, 2016

The not-so-audacious

You look like someone I have forgotten about 
You are tempting

I hold my failures between my teeth
My pain lies at the end of my throat
If I shout hard enough
It might go away

But

I don't have to rehearse my part

Because as it seems
I remain uninvolved

I do not know
Why I cannot grow roots

But then again
I do not know
if I want to

I find myself detached 
from all the shiny people 
I digress 
I deny
I refuse

I know exactly why
I do not care to explain

to anyone but

you.