Crash-end-O

I have yet to learn
how to be alive
but there are days
I feel vibrant
thriving
colossal

scribble scribble
scribble scribble

no note to keep
no photograph to remember
the light was dim
and dimmer dimmer dimmer
one more life
I will not waste
Not now
Nor never

I have borrowed lives
that I do not want 
but I do not know 
how to give back

I have yet to learn
how to live
with what is not mine.