Spectator

Nowadays we share nothing
but space 

I remember how easily we exhanged

empty promises

that now float around us

I do not feel

anger

or 

sadness

but I feel like

I had to become shallow

in order to fit

in this reality 

and 

an abudance of people

sharing your love

playing their roles

smiling

you never made me smile

except for

the days when I dreamt

how it would be to be with you

but I didn't know 

it would hurt 

that 

much

and I never knew

that you would want to 

kill me

and I never imagined that I would want to

survive