Unlover

Lover ungrateful,
lover unfaithful,
I wonder
are you ever really mine?

when you go
I drink water from your cup

your smell lingers on me
the smell of expensive perfume
and passion

I am a love letter
made of saltwater

Lover ungrateful,
lover unfaithful,
sometimes
I want to keep you in my pocket
backpocket
you’ll like it better

you carry the weight
of the questionmark I drew
over your head

I carry the weight
of all the choices
I won’t make

Lover ungrateful
lover unfaithful
I wonder
am I ever really yours?